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WHY CCFA: Because it's personal
Reason Number One Why I Chose the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation: it's personal.
When I was fourteen years old, I was diagnosed with inflammatory bowel disease. My symptoms (more on that & my process of being diagnosed in a later post) had started over a year prior, but because of the nature of IBD and its symptoms, it took that long for anyone else to notice & for the doctors to figure out what was happening inside my body.
I don't remember the particular moment of being told my diagnosis, but I do remember my mom telling me what they thought it was. At one point or another, I was officially told it was Crohn's disease. Crohn's is the "entire-GI-tract-can-be-inflamed-if-your-immune-system-is-particularly-angry-and-out-to-kill-you" flavor of IBD, to be compared with Ulcerative Colitis, the marginally more docile "generally-prefers-to-stay-in-your-colon-and-rectum" younger sibling.
I'd find out years later the pathologist had actually called it "indeterminate colitis". That's the super-fun surprise flavor of IBD, where each GI you see labels you with their preferred flavor-of-the-day (/insert time period-for-which-you-are-under-their-care).
For what it's worth (next to nothing, for the record), the more convincing diagnosis in my case is Ulcerative Colitis. If you were to ask me what I have, UC would be my answer. Because I'd been in a "flare" (exhibiting clinical symptoms of IBD - again, more on that later) for so long, the inflammation in my colon at diagnosis was severe enough to expand beyond my large intestine & venture into the ends of my small intestine. Most of my doctors have agreed on this being typical of severe UC, though every doctor has their own take. In the long run - treatments are largely the same, so it's mostly the comfort of having language to describe what's going on in my body.
To bring it all back to my fundraiser: CCFA is an amazing and worthy cause on its own. But it's personal. And there are so many more reasons that I'll touch on over the next 30-odd weeks that I chose CCFA. I hope you'll join me, both in supporting this amazing cause by donating, but also in helping to break the stigma & barriers to care faced by people like me by following along and sharing my story.
So why CCFA?
Because it's personal.
Because it can ABSOLUTELY SUCK.
Because there's no cure.
Because it's hard to talk about, but it shouldn't be.
Because people aren't talking about it.
Because there's stigma associated with IBD & its symptoms, just like mental illness.
Because it's different from IBS.
Because it shouldn't be my job to educate almost everyone, including my doctors, on it.
Because you don't really get what it's like unless you have it.
Because even GI doctors don't always understand what it's like.
Because sometimes doctors say the REALLY wrong things, even with the best intentions.
Because it's freaking expensive.
Because insurance is a headache to navigate - coming from someone who has experience working in health insurance, & currently works in P&C insurance.
Because the list doesn't even end here.
Disclaimer - you might be reading this and thinking, "but Meg, I've known you since X, why didn't you ever tell me this?" & so stay tuned for my next post answering your question! In the meantime, I'll reassure you that it's no reflection of our friendship/relationship/etc., and honestly has nothing to do with you personally, and everything to do with me. It took everything in me to leave this disclaimer for the end, because I'd hate to hurt someone's feelings for not having shared this, but at the end of the day - this is my story to share and choose when and how to share it. I need to treat myself and my story with the same care, compassion, & dignity.
by Megan Loomis on Fri, Mar 12, 2021 @ 10:21 PM
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